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Thursday, December 24, 2009

Isn't there ANYONE who knows what Christmas is all about!!!???

Linus knows!!!

Strange how you hear the same story year after year, and then one day it clicks.   I didn't realize that there was something that had not "clicked" yet.  

People are having a harder time feeling the Christmas Spirit this year.  And I noticed the war against it is gathering steam.  Lots of weirdness going on. 


I never really thought about the birth of Christ as God's first entrance into the world as man, as God wrapped in human flesh.  When thinking about Christmas only thoughts of the Christ Child entered my mind.  

I really do not know how to describe the emotions this moment of knowing has created.    At Christmas we hear about all the prophecies his birth fulfilled,  But if one is not familiar with them, it does not sink in. 

I wonder why it is different this year for me?





Here is the full episode:



Luke 2:9-14

 9And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid.

 10And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.

 11For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.

 12And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.

 13And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying,

 14Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Lifechurch - O Come O Come Emanuel

In the Spirit of Christmas!  
I love this song, and the drum part ROCKS!!!! 

Friday, December 11, 2009

THE FOURTH KIND

I finally saw The Fourth Kind.  And I know what some are thinking, so let me say first that the night terrors and strange marks I previously posted about have been occurring for years.  This year it has increased in frequency.  And I was not always sleeping either. As a child when I had what some have termed "visitations", everyone was asleep in the house except for me.  No matter how hard I tried they simply would not,  or could not,  wake up. 


I found this movie very interesting and want to point out a few things.  But first, here is a little clip for those who have not seen the film.  





Before you laugh know that the CIA and the Airforce have their own studies.  Also check out this video on real UFO sightings. UFO's 


Take note of the name Captain Kenju Terauchi, a seasoned pilot and witness to one of the most famous UFO encounters.   He was piloting a Boeing 747 cargo plane over Anchorage on the night of November 17, 1986 when it occurred.   It was witnessed by many and caught on radar by not only JAL flight 1628, but also by the Airforce and Confirmed by the FAA Division Chief.  The 2 objects dwarfed the 747 cargo plane.   For more info see:



For more information see the following link to an interview with former Apollo astronaut Edgar Mitchell:  LINK

Mitchell caused a media flurry when he spoke publicly on the subject of UFO's, Aliens, and a meeting with the Pentagon.   Edgar Mitchell has also worked with the Disclosure Project.  


Now to the movie The Fourth Kind. This is not your average We are your friendly Space Brothers film.  

DANGER, DANGER, SPOILER ALERT!!!  


Still reading?  Just remember, you were warned. :)

Previously Abigail discovered while looking through her "murdered" late husband's research notes that he had an interest in the Sumerian language,  and the name and number of an expert in that field,  Dr. Awolowa Odusami.    She contacts him and it's confirmed that he had spoken with her husband.  She tells him about a tape of one of their hypnosis sessions and a strange voice captured on it.  He concludes that the language is Sumerian and recognizes a few words, such as "destroy" NOT a good sign!  lol


Towards the end of the movie Dr. Abigail Tyler  is faced with the reality of her husbands death and their young daughters subsequent disappearance when former colleague  psychoanalyst Dr Campos along with author and linguistic expert Dr. Awolowa Odusami place her under hypnosis for clues as to what really happened.

And what happens as a result is quite disturbing.   She pulls a Linda Blair and appears to levitate, her body twisting and contorting, mouth opening wide in a way that seems humanly impossible.  The two men are shocked and pull her out of the trance.


We are shown a portion of what occurred, the camera briefly closes in on the alarm clock, it reads 3:33 am.   Some know the significance of  3am.    We watch a terrorized Abigail asking what has just  entered her room and pleading for her little daughter, demanding her return   The thing in her room does not care.

We then see Abigail crying, begging, pleading, "Oooooh God!!!..."



Another voice speaks through her, an ancient masculine voice filled with contempt and  spoke these chilling words......"I am Anu....I AM...........God."  

Hummm, can you say Zacharia Sitchen?  Now say it really fast 12 times in a row.  J/K!


This movie had shades of Sitchen, the Zeitgeist movie, David Icke, and Erik von Daniken all over it.

Still fascinating.   And none of the God is an Alien, We are starseed, or We are just an experiment theories were rammed down the viewers throat, the average person probably would  not have caught the subtle hints.   All assumptions are left up to the viewer.  No matter how one of the last lines of the movie was intended to be taken, there was truth in it.
 

The Interviewer asked for Dr Tyler's thoughts regarding the voice that channeled through her and the audio that was captured where it claimed to be God.  Her response was that it  was empty, there was a feeling of no hope.  God is Love, she said.   She stated that it cannot be God because there was no hope: 

"I believe the things I've seen, the presence I've felt inside of me is beyond anything you can imagine, it was hopelessness so it cannot be God but it can pretend to be."

Yep, anything that feeds on fear, steals from what is already created,  and transmutes it, is not God. 
 


To borrow a quote from the highly popular show Fringe,  "There is more than one of everything".   That thought came to mind after watching The Fourth Kind and reading  reviews.   In the movie the subjects all reported while in session or when under hypnosis, seeing an owl outside their window right before their abduction experiences.   

"There is an owl at my window. A white owl. It was just looking at me for hours. No matter what I did, it wouldn't fly away. It wasn't scared of me."


"There's something outside my door. It's gonna open it! The door's opening! Oh my God! Oh my God!! No! Noooo!"

"It's unbelievable, it doesn't make any sense. I saw them. They're not from here! They control what I see in my own mind. All I can see is an owl but I know it's not an owl. I remember that they smell like a putrid cinnamon. The worse part was the voice inside my head. They talk to you so you can hear them but they also talk inside your mind. Then they took me away to someplace I can't remember and they did things to me that I can't remember."

 There have been several explanations given for this such as screen memories, a trick of the mind when looking looking into an alien gray's eyes, etc....  


Words and symbols have a magic all their own.  They are multi-layered, each having more than one meaning.  


You can't add a dash of ancient Sumer,  ye olde gods, and dead languages in a movie plot and not be expected to pull from Mesopotamian culture.


So I draw from the past, from ancient Sumer.



In Sumerian clay tablets many creatures are depicted and mentioned.  Some have wings and the feet of an owl.  I do not mean Lilith,  though in the Hebrew OT she is a demoness associated with the  owl. 


Isaiah 34:14f

Wildcats shall meet with hyenas,
goat-demons shall call to each other;
there too Lilith shall repose,
and find a place to rest.
There shall the owl nest
and lay and hatch and brood in its shadow
  
The majority of the following descriptions of malevolent spirits were taken from cuneiform texts in the British Museum.  You may find more on the subject in the book,  The Treasures of Darkness:  A History of Mesopotamian Religion, by Thorkild Jacobsen.  



They are  gloomy, their shadow dark, no light  is in their bodies,
ever they slink  along covertly, walk  not upright,
from their claws drips bitter gall, their  footprints  are (full of) evil venom....

Neither males are they, nor  females,
they are winds ever sweeping along,
they have  not wives,  engender not children,
know not how to show mercy,
hear  not prayer and  supplication....

The shivers and chills  (of death) that fritter the sum  of things, spawn of the god of  heaven, spawned on an evil spirit,
the death  warrants, beloved  sons of the storm god, born of the queen of the  netherworld,
who  were torn out of heaven and hurled from the earth as  castoffs,  are creatures of hell, all.

Up above they roar, down below  they cheep,
they are the bitter venom of the gods,
they  are the great  storms let loose from heaven,
they are the  owl (of ill omen) that hoots in  the town,
spawn spawned by  the god of heaven, sons born by earth are  they.

Over  high roofs, over broad roofs like a floodwave they  surge,
from  house to house they climb over,
Doors do not hold them,  locks  do not restrain them.....
through the doors they glide like  snakes,
through  the hinge boxes they blow like wind.

From the man's  embrace  they lead off the wife,
from the man's knee they make the child  get  up,
and the youth they fetch out of the house of his  in-laws,
they are  the numbness, the daze, that tread on the  heels of man. 

There are many theories out on aliens,  who knows, maybe some are humans who have time traveled back to the past. 

As previously mentioned the voice that spoke through Abigail claimed to be God, claimed to  be Anu.   Now Anu was an ancient Sumerian sky-god, the chief  god, a ruler  of high places and over spirits and demons.   Anu was also considered to be the father of the Anunnaki.   They were "Those who from Heaven to Earth came."  On a side note  the Anakites (Hebrew Anakim) of the bible were also considered sons of Anak.  Some believe they are descendants of the Nephilim.  Others believe it is a name for the Watchers. They would have been those who came from the sky. 


Many legends and myths have a grain of truth in them.  Remember the Scorpion King?  A fun movie, but I am partial to muscular handsome men.  LOL  But back in 2002, in what is now Iraq, a carving was found of what may well be the Scorpion King.  See this article from the New York Times: Carving of a King Could Rewrite History

And there have been some interesting finds associated with the oldest story ever recorded in history, the Sumerian Epic of Gilgamesh.  He was described as two parts god, one part man.


Truthfully I'm not that into the Christian UFO conspiracy groups, and I will never buy my new age friends theory, that the friendly aliens are preparing us for the next step in human evolution and want what is best for mankind.


However these dark Sumerian descriptions are what people like Russ Dizdar speak about, hybrids, inter-dimensional entities, demons, nephilim, etc.........  

"they are  the numbness, the daze, that tread on the  heels of man"  

"(They) know not how to show mercy,
hear  not prayer and  supplication...."

"Doors do not hold them,  locks  do not restrain them...""

 It makes ones think.  I've had enough experiences that I don't want it or go looking for it. The bad thing is, I don't have to look for it.



I do believe there has been a transmutation, and there are hybrids. Zeph has put out a few thought provoking podcast on this subject. 


Well, I enjoyed the "The Fourth Kind" and did not consider it time wasted as l did with the movie "Paranormal Activity."  I hated that one and wanted my time back!!

One thing concerns me about this movie is that it did a disservice to the victims in the Alaskan town of Nome.  They are very real and there is a problem.  In fact in Alaska if you compare ratio to population,  the stats of missing persons to all other states,  they have twice the amount.   That town is also part of a huge area in Alaska known as "The Bermuda Triangle".

Though I do believe in the supernatural world I also believe there are human monsters. I'll never forget how I felt when the body of my little brother was found.  It is still a cold case. I remember how the news kept playing images of the body bag.  I wanted to scream out: He was my brother, he had a name!  He was not just a statistic!


Hopefully others who go see this movie will search for facts on the  real victims,  and in a way maybe it will draw attention to it.  From what I have found it seems to me they have a serial killer, probably  more than one working together.........undergrounders.  I also wonder how many cases that may have been foul play were improperly handled and brushed off a suicide or accident because of a stereotype.



I am saving that for the next post. 


Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Night Terrors

Nightmares.......for once I wish for total recall. This thing that I cannot remember seems so very real, in fact it is too real.


By the marks it leaves for my waking time.........it mocks me. It takes a while to recover, very draining and it causes severe migraines.



I forgot to make a notation for Oktober. Temporarily pinpointed every 6 to 8 weeks. What is happening between this 6th and 8th week?


Desperately needing answers, medical tests have shed no light. This is getting frustrating.



I know I'm not the only one whose nightmares slip between the worlds leaving an imprint. If anyone is wondering, the prints are too big to be mine, there's no match. It is very hard to take a pic of the back of your own head,   I'm not sure what the tiny marks are.  As far as I can tell they begin at the base of the skull to the cervical spine.    Even if the cause is not found in the natural world I must know......WHY?  TBH I have my suspicions but cannot confirm it yet.   I do want the nightmare to stop. 

I feel so alone right now.


Listened to Z's new podcast.  One day we will be awakened and remember who we are and our purpose for being here.  I also agree that it is in the DNA.  There is The Black Awakening for that side, and there is an opposite to it, an awakening of the children of Light, the real Light.


ETA: Just thought of this, there is a possibility that it is a body memory.  In some of my nightmares I am being choked.


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Tuesday, December 1, 2009

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marionette...

Razorblades



................
In a way, I failed religion
I spit the wine from mouth to cup
And I reached for something more than just your God
Uncle, you spared not your children
And while your praying hands are up
There's no forgiveness for you! You sick fuck!

It is you that I remember in their bedroom
It is you that took their first away from them
It is you they set their standards to
You wounded them for life
You were a preacher and suppose to be above men


A brief bout with a razorblade cut me
I freaked out, thinking people didn't love me
I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me
In letting go, I am so proud of what I've done




No accountability, No forgiveness.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Baptise My Heart~ Misty Edwards



Feeling strange.   I am in a contemplative mood today, thinking about spirituality and taking a look at a few things in my life.



I do not have some fear based belief in a Pre-Trib Rapture.  And no hating on me for that, I will not waste my time debating that issue.  I've seen those movies where people are left behind and had friends beg me to read the series of books as well.  I was not impressed so glad they do not know about this Blog!  I do not like hurting peoples feelings and they meant well.



But that does not mean that I can be careless either.     When it is all over, said and done....I do not want to find out that I have offended God.  I do not want to find out I have been working against God.


I have to question everything, look close within to see what is really there, then deal with it now, not later. 
 

I like Misty Edwards Music even if I don't like church.  The spirit behind her words pierces me.



There's only one safe place,
In the center of the flame...


I don't want to be offended,
I don't want to be offended
I don't want to be offended
When it's all coming down

I wanna be for You
Not against You
I wanna be with You where You are.....


I pledge my allegiance to Jesus, to Jesus
I pledge my allegiance to the Lamb......



I wanna be where You are
-the only safe place-

Baptize my heart with Your fire,
Your Desire.....